Subject: I should be in bed...
OK I am a little stressed. Here's why:
1) Trish and I have not seen each other in forever and I know it sounds pathetic but I really miss her. It sucks.
2)Student teaching- we got our packets today and I am completely overwhelmed. I felt exactly like I did when Beta Rho first met with our VPM to talk about what was going to be required of us. I felt helpless and like everything is impossible. I know it isn't, but that's the surface feeling you get. I seriously felt like crying after our meeting today, and the only thing that saved me was going back into the classroom and being with the kids.
3)Which bring me to this, and I never thought I would say it: I really miss being in preschool. I miss the kids, I miss being with Mary, I miss the kids' independence, I miss their verbal abilities the most though... I miss it so much.
4) Not running today freaked me out a little... I am not one to skip workouts, but I was freakin exhausted after 8.5 hours in the toddler room and a chair setup... I am afraid I won't be able to do the half, which scares me. I'm also nervous because I will need to push MYSELF through this half marathon, I can't rely on anyone to get me through it. It's all me...
5) This is my last freakin semester and I am afraid I won't get a good job!
So I am a little out-of-sorts tonight.
Good things going on:
1) Long chat with Tony tonight- he vented for the first call and I vented (and cried, leave me alone!) for the second. (Thanks TL)
2) I am working in preschool tomorrow :)
3) The yellow writing is (corny, I know) for Lance Armstrong being a huge inspiration to me and reminds me that there are (athletically) good days and bad days... and that even though today wasn't so hot, tomorrow will be better.
4) The Biggest Loser and American Idol are on t.v. and they're great shows.
5) I am super motivated by the fact that I KNOW I can push myself, and I KNOW I can get myself through the next race, and I can almost bet money on the idea of beating my last time by at least 10 minutes because I have changed my training routine entirely.
6) I am proud of myself (yes I said it) for overcoming the things that have not gone right for me in the past couple of months. I've been faced with so many different challenges and time and time again I am reminded that what doesn't kill me (and nothing can, by the way) will only make me stronger, and that is absolutely true. Just look at my fieldwork experience.
Alrighty... feeling a little lighter... time to hit up my real journal and lay it all out there.
Deep breaths and baby steps...
OK I am a little stressed. Here's why:
1) Trish and I have not seen each other in forever and I know it sounds pathetic but I really miss her. It sucks.
2)Student teaching- we got our packets today and I am completely overwhelmed. I felt exactly like I did when Beta Rho first met with our VPM to talk about what was going to be required of us. I felt helpless and like everything is impossible. I know it isn't, but that's the surface feeling you get. I seriously felt like crying after our meeting today, and the only thing that saved me was going back into the classroom and being with the kids.
3)Which bring me to this, and I never thought I would say it: I really miss being in preschool. I miss the kids, I miss being with Mary, I miss the kids' independence, I miss their verbal abilities the most though... I miss it so much.
4) Not running today freaked me out a little... I am not one to skip workouts, but I was freakin exhausted after 8.5 hours in the toddler room and a chair setup... I am afraid I won't be able to do the half, which scares me. I'm also nervous because I will need to push MYSELF through this half marathon, I can't rely on anyone to get me through it. It's all me...
5) This is my last freakin semester and I am afraid I won't get a good job!
So I am a little out-of-sorts tonight.
Good things going on:
1) Long chat with Tony tonight- he vented for the first call and I vented (and cried, leave me alone!) for the second. (Thanks TL)
2) I am working in preschool tomorrow :)
3) The yellow writing is (corny, I know) for Lance Armstrong being a huge inspiration to me and reminds me that there are (athletically) good days and bad days... and that even though today wasn't so hot, tomorrow will be better.
4) The Biggest Loser and American Idol are on t.v. and they're great shows.
5) I am super motivated by the fact that I KNOW I can push myself, and I KNOW I can get myself through the next race, and I can almost bet money on the idea of beating my last time by at least 10 minutes because I have changed my training routine entirely.
6) I am proud of myself (yes I said it) for overcoming the things that have not gone right for me in the past couple of months. I've been faced with so many different challenges and time and time again I am reminded that what doesn't kill me (and nothing can, by the way) will only make me stronger, and that is absolutely true. Just look at my fieldwork experience.
Alrighty... feeling a little lighter... time to hit up my real journal and lay it all out there.
Deep breaths and baby steps...
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