Updating again...

Today was just such a bizarre day. I went to Auntie Phyllis' funeral. I wasn't especially close to her, but she was one of the elder members in our family that was just always around. She was a really sweet (and unfortunately, really sick) lady. She always thought of little things (graduation cards, Relay for Life donations, e-mails while I was at school) to brighten your day. I'm sad that she's gone, but somewhat relieved, because she was definitely fighting it for the past couple of years. She has been in and out of hospitals, and faced with so much, and that's not the kind of life she should have been living. It's a tough thing, but I know she's peaceful now.

(*big sigh*)

Jeff came down for the funeral this morning. It was so thoughtful of him, and I know my family will remember it in the times to come. I was very happy to see my family, and wished I didn't have to work so I could spend some more time with them. They're a really dynamic group of people... and every once in a while it takes a little tragedy to make you appreciate them more. I love my family, they really rock.

Tonight at work, I was thinking way too much. I brought a ton of insecurity on myself. I don't know why, it was just such a weird day! Everything made me think. I really have a bunch of things on my mind, and I'm just looking for a safe outlet to dump them all. Someone completely unbiased who will keep secrets and try to give good honest advice. One good thing, thought: Tony came through my booth tonight! He really made my night happier at work. It's always the little things that make it all worthwhile...

On top of it all, I am sad cause I missed the Southbridge fireworks. I was getting out of work as they were going on. I love fireworks. None for me this year... :(

I think it's time for bed. I'm EXHAUSTED from being up half the night with the crazy severe thunderstorms we were having. I can't even describe them... but I have never seen anything like them in my life. They were the scariest storms ever. And they definitely kept me up for at least 2 hours... which is why I am coming back to my original thought...

BED. Sweet dreams...

I got a reminder tonight that I do, in fact, have readers on my blog. And that I need to be more consistent! If that is the case, then consistency, here I come... (I'll try, anyway)

I'm having a rough go with one of my best friends. I'm really upset over it, but I have yet to find a way to bring it up without hurting feelings. All I want is a little bit of respect from this person. It's not hard. A little less selfishness, and a little more thinking of other people. I don't know what to do to alleviate it... but I know it can only build up for so long before it boils over, and last night was close. So hopefully, I'll come up with a solution. And soon.

Yesterday was fun with Jeff. We went to the Wrentham outlets to shop. I know he hates shopping with me, cause I drag him into EVERY store and make him give me his opinion on anything I pick up, but I give him big brownie points for coming. Then we went out to dinner with Mom, Memere and Pepere... not exactly the dinner I had in mind, but I'm glad we went, it was fun. Last night we went to Munchie's with everyone, and then drove around and talked a ton before Jeff finally had to go home. I owe him a ton for some of these conversations!

Today was great as well. Well, dentist first. Fillings suck. I'm not going to go into detail, but it isn't fun. After, I went to Munchie's to lay in the sun and then make smoothies. We had fun, especially making fun of the goofy twins on some t.v. show. :) Tonight, Tony and I set up shop in John Harvard's to watch the Yankees game and eat... and eat... and eat. It was great. Tony and I haven't gotten together to chat for a really long time. It reminded me that next year isn't going to be as long and hard as I thought... I will always have friends around (whether near or far!) to hang out with. And Tony, since I know you read this, thank you, and keep in touch. And for those not in the know... The Yankees are great. They always come through in the clutch...

I am exhausted. Tomorrow will be working on the Jeep with Dad (yes- my dad, with whom I haven't spoken for... wow, a long time) and then running, shower, lunch, work... God, my life is so full of routine. Someone break me of it!

Just keep swimming...