Subject: Happy!!

I LOVE THE 60 DEGREE WEATHER!

Of course it's going to be horrible when the actual winter returns... but I can't complain because I have gotten to run outside for the past 2 days and it's great. Granted I am a little sore, but it's nothing I can't live with.

I LOVE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!

Providence tonight with my girls :) Can't wait!

Subject: I should be in bed...

OK I am a little stressed. Here's why:

1) Trish and I have not seen each other in forever and I know it sounds pathetic but I really miss her. It sucks.
2)Student teaching- we got our packets today and I am completely overwhelmed. I felt exactly like I did when Beta Rho first met with our VPM to talk about what was going to be required of us. I felt helpless and like everything is impossible. I know it isn't, but that's the surface feeling you get. I seriously felt like crying after our meeting today, and the only thing that saved me was going back into the classroom and being with the kids.
3)Which bring me to this, and I never thought I would say it: I really miss being in preschool. I miss the kids, I miss being with Mary, I miss the kids' independence, I miss their verbal abilities the most though... I miss it so much.
4) Not running today freaked me out a little... I am not one to skip workouts, but I was freakin exhausted after 8.5 hours in the toddler room and a chair setup... I am afraid I won't be able to do the half, which scares me. I'm also nervous because I will need to push MYSELF through this half marathon, I can't rely on anyone to get me through it. It's all me...
5) This is my last freakin semester and I am afraid I won't get a good job!

So I am a little out-of-sorts tonight.

Good things going on:
1) Long chat with Tony tonight- he vented for the first call and I vented (and cried, leave me alone!) for the second. (Thanks TL)
2) I am working in preschool tomorrow :)
3) The yellow writing is (corny, I know) for Lance Armstrong being a huge inspiration to me and reminds me that there are (athletically) good days and bad days... and that even though today wasn't so hot, tomorrow will be better.
4) The Biggest Loser and American Idol are on t.v. and they're great shows.
5) I am super motivated by the fact that I KNOW I can push myself, and I KNOW I can get myself through the next race, and I can almost bet money on the idea of beating my last time by at least 10 minutes because I have changed my training routine entirely.
6) I am proud of myself (yes I said it) for overcoming the things that have not gone right for me in the past couple of months. I've been faced with so many different challenges and time and time again I am reminded that what doesn't kill me (and nothing can, by the way) will only make me stronger, and that is absolutely true. Just look at my fieldwork experience.

Alrighty... feeling a little lighter... time to hit up my real journal and lay it all out there.

Deep breaths and baby steps...

Subject: The beginning of the end...

We started our last semester today, seniors... sad... :( But I started it off with 2 classes that I think I will really enjoy, or at least I think so. One is adulthood and aging and the other is family interaction processes. I am hoping they will keep my interest, or at least that I can do really well in them and get another 4.0 this semester. Plus, Kristina and Margo are in both of my classes, Kelly is in another, and Kate B is in the other one. I love my HDFS friends :) cause they understand about the child labs and the craziness that happens on a daily basis... <3

After my classes I went to the gym. It was frustrating as hell because I couldn't get a freakin treadmill. There were 900 people in the gym, it was busy, and sucked. I did get in a pretty good workout though, and I ran into Mike Albert ;) so I guess it was worth it. When I got home I did a new abs video and ohmygod if I don't have a 6-pack within a week I will be really surprised. I could hardly do all of the exercizes... it was so freakin hard!! I'm thinking that once I get used to it (by the end of the week) I will be able to play it through twice and hopefully be able to do it! I didn't get to go to the child labs today, which kind of made me sad. Luckily Tuesdays are the only days that I don't go to the child labs. Every other day of the week I am there for at least 4 hours. I can't wait to see the kids again!!

I can't wait for spring to come... not that I am wishing my time away, because I am not. I just love the spring weather... and being able to run outside and stuff. I am hoping the weather is decent for the rest of the week so that I can maybe run outside at school. I miss my routes from UCONN and I know I will run them a lot this spring! There are some good distances there!

I have some work to do tonight, so I think I am going to get going and get a good start on all that crap.

Welcome back to the semester, everybody... it's gonna be a wild ride...

Can I hear a big round of applause for Tony Leone? He fixed my blog AND somehow got my comments to work again... thanks Tone! ;)

Subject: Hahaha...

Good thing Mr. Cooper (Munchie's dad) now reads my blog... and read last week's entries and knows all of my dirty little secrets- haha. He im-ed me last night and said that even though he knows all about me, he still loves me... haha.

Friday night was GIRLS' NIGHT! It was fun. We opened our presents (Lisa got me the FRIENDS edition of SCENE IT... OMG I can't wait to play it... or turn it into a drinking game!!), ate cake for Katie's birthday (It said "Happy second 21st Birthday"), and then went out to a bar in Worcester called IRISH TIMES. It was fun! I ran into 2 people from the Pike (Sketchy Dave and Dan Ford) and Dave bought me a shot (tequila of course) and then spent the rest of the night trying to buy me more drinks. I think he was trying to get me drunk! I only had 2 beers and a shot though, cause I was driving. This bar was so cool, though. The bottom floor is like a pub, with a live band (that was really awesome on Friday night by the way) and a bunch of tables and stuff. The second floor is just tables. The third floor is a club with dancing and craziness. It was a good time.

Yesterday was my last day at the Pike. :( I was actually pretty sad! Marty was there, though, and we got to spend a lot of time together yesterday. I'm really going to miss that kid... he's a good friend, which I have found out more and more recently. Anyway, I was especially sad to leave him. I got out at 10 but then I went into his booth because he wasn't getting out until midnight. So we listened to the Pats game, which was terribly disappointing. But then we really had to say goodbye, which was definitely sad. I hope we keep in touch... :( Oh and P.S. Linda (one of the women I work with at the Pike) told us that she thinks that Marty and I are soulmates. It was really funny!!!

On that note... my room is a DISASTER AREA from the past 3 days of not being home, and therefore it must be time to go clean...

Peace out <3