6/18/2003

Good thing it's not raining again... This weather is RIDICULOUS. I'm talking rain... from today until next Friday when we are supposed to see sunlight. Who knows? By then, that could change.

First and foremost, a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY to: JDeetz, Jeff Erhart, and Shane (RIP, we love you and you're always in our hearts) yesterday, and to C today!

Yesterday I didn't do anything. Munch and I went out to try to find her mom a birthday present, but the trip only left Munch present-less and frustrated, so she dropped me off. I went out to dinner with my dad around 7... it's different, only going out to dinner with him. We've never really had much in common. But last night on the way home, we actually carried on a conversation. It's a rarity, but I'll take it where I can get it... Last night was entertaining. Like I said above, it's Mr. C's birthday today. Last year, Munch, Lisa, Steph, Amanda and I set up a dinner at Sekura Tokyo (really good Japanese food) and a huge surprise, etc. This year, we didn't have quite so much time to plan. Last night at 9:30 or so, Munch called me and we got right to work. She got in touch with Krista for information, and we got some supplies. At 11:15, we went over to his house and decorated his car: balloons, window-writing markers, letters across the windshield, candy, and streamers! It took us an hour to put it together but it was a lot of fun. I hope he got a chance to see it (and take it off!) before the rain set in today...

Mom is bringing McDonald's over for dinner tonight so she can continue taking the house apart. Yesterday, she took all of her books from the huge shelves in the living room, so they are empty now. This sucks, but at least now she is looking for her own place. I wouldn't mind visiting so much if I had a space of my own to go to. At Lisa's, there isn't anything of mine... it's just awkward, that's all. I keep reminding myself that this is a temporary thing and she'll be on her own two feet soon...

It's funny how things change... I was reading over some journals of mine the other day (I do that from time to time... and for those of you who don't know, I have kept a journal every day since October 1, 1995. That makes for 25 journals, ranging from those really cute fashion ones to 5-subject notebooks... all full up on my life) and I got back in touch with what my life was like years ago. It is especially entertaining to read my high school journals... I was so scared to go to college. It went from me being interested in the military, to questions about what college would fit me best, to the day I got accepted to UCONN. I knew I couldn't leave music out of my life, but I wasn't sure if I could dedicate tons of my time to it by joining the UCMB... It's awesome how far my thoughts have come since then! To think I was scared to go to a place that I now consider a huge part of my life. The people I have met there have become my best friends and my brothers. What more could a girl ask for? And my friends from Southbridge... it's like I have to get to know them all over again. The ones that I value most will always stay close. The others will fall into their own lives, seperate from my own. But with that seperation will come not a feeling of unrest and uneasiness, but rather a certain contentment, b/c we had our friendships, and just drifted. No hard feelings, no regrets, it just happened. Change is okay! I had the hardest time understanding that, which is probably why I was scared to go to school, to leave my friends, to deal with my mom leaving... I think now, I have come to terms with the fact that it is okay for things to change. I don't live in a perfect world, but then again, no one does. I'll end with a quote: "This is the place where I learned to live this life, to curse this life, and to claim this life for my very own." -Jodie Foster

(*gasp*) merrrr... I'm done! Time to hit the shower and get ready for whatever tonight may hold for me! No doubt, more crazy times with Munch and a good cd... (namely, Guster lately. I got her hooked!)

Peace out!

6/16/2003

did someone say toddlers?

i sure did!

for any of you who haven't worked with children in that age group (we're talking 1 & 1/2 to 2 & 1/2 year olds here, people...), they are little bundles of energy strung so high that when combined, they could probably power the whole town for a decade.

things i learned today:

-every childs' name! (izaia, sonia, matthew, hunter, pedro and ravel (pudgy)-twins, raniel, and joeshua. after saying things like: "(insert name here), no. (insert name here), get down. (insert name here), leave him alone. (insert name here) leave your brother alone. (insert name here) hands to yourself. (insert name here) go back to the classroom please..." get the point? you learn names very quickly.

-that 8 is enough! i worked for 6 hours today with 8 toddlers... and usually, there are 18... oh goodness...

-sand doesn't belong anywhere but in the sandbox!!! this includes in hands, eyes, clothing, hair, mouths, your friends' eyes, etc. (hey kate: miss c, what's this? ack! throw your hugs!)

-naptime is such a good idea. rubbing their backs, and they were so cute laying on their individual mats, sleeping soundly...

-naptime is such a bad idea. they recharge their batteries entirely so that they can come back full speed ahead.

-don't do it to one if you don't want to do it for all of them. for example, lifting them up so they can see over the divider into the infants room... yeah, i did that enough times.

-no means yes, no means maybe, and no means no. do these kids really have any idea what they want? for example: "(insert name here) do you want more milk?" answer = no. as soon as you walk away, answer = yes. i don't get it...

-that infants, or at least one of them, are afraid of me. i was feeding nicholas in the morning (he was fine with that, and so were the other 4 infants), and the other infant cried incessantly until i left the room... sheesh...

-that i don't think i will need another job... i don't think i can get out of work this tired, and go to work again...

...and that, folks, was my day. i'll post again soon. but for now... I AM SO TIRED!!!!!!!!!

6/15/2003

long weekend...!

friday: dad finally left to go get danny's boat. mom was in and out all day b/c she was still moving her stuff out. i ran errands most of the day and then headed to joe's house for a night of beta rho... d free! galina and shannon couldn't make it :( but they were missed! it was fun: joe cooked for us (what was it? papaya, matt? lol) and then we settled in with a movie (death to smoochy... very funny and yet another remarkable side to robin williams). when we finally went upstairs to "sleep" there was craziness- hide and seek, and plenty of chit-chatting (kate rubs off on ya after awhile...). from now on: kate gets no love! one out-of-line comment: it's SO over!

saturday: woke up, breakfast and showers all around, and then out to sara sabs' where we sat on the pavement with glenn before realizing that the meeting wasn't where we were. lol. sooo we got the right place, and headed over there. dmills managed to talk for an hour! but it's good stuff... i am very much looking forward to next season. preaseason is going to be tons of work... but a blast as usual. i'm so excited. after the meeting, it was off to girosky's graduation party. it was so good to see him! and the tonemeister! great day filled with sun and playing outside. then the rainshower... and i headed home.

last night was a great time with munch, joe, jay, sherri, katie, leo, and lisa: we played camoflage outside and then retreated up to jay's loft for tons of fun, dancing, etc. haha... (it was finally a dance party, right kates?) i came home midnight-ish... and went to bed exhausted from the past 2 days' engagements.

today, it was sunny again. i went to my aunt's to get my mail and hung out there for awhile. then to uconn to pick up dad's present. (he still isn't home yet, but he'll get it eventually) then to munchie's to scare the living hell out of her while she was in the shower. (lol)

things i am looking forward to:
(june)
-starting my job, this week hopefully...
-jeep jeep jeep, this week, hopefully...!
-getting to shs to see mr.c
-uncle jim's band playing out/emmett's birthday party
-coffee break for council
-balloons for kkpsi
(july)
-galina's
-trip to shippensburg for installation... let me know if you are interested, i'm def going!
-council meeting
-possible guster concert?
(august)
-another council meeting
-aerosmith concert!
-kkpsi summer campout
-preseason
-JOHN MAYER CONCERT!

...and of course...

things i am not looking forward to:
-gas money- long car trips for short engagements :(
-losing my valued hours of sleep by returning to uconn
-munchie's trip to florida in july
-katie's trip to texas in august
-my parents' wedding anniversary
-packing... again
-missing 2002's seniors
-returning to school without that little piece of myself that i so enjoyed...
-the d word that comes with being at school...

i think that's enough for the negatives. (*sigh*) still going to be a long summer, don't you think?

oh well. i'm done until next time!